Personal Log of Michael Hawkins
Posted on 05 Nov 2022 @ 4:41pm by
Mission:
Through the looking glass
Location: Somewhere very private
422 words - 0.8 OF Standard Post Measure
Personal log of Lieutenant Michael Hawkins, Chief Engineer. Being written in a very private place away from prying eyes, and the log being very encrypted. Typing this so as to not be heard by possible listening ears.
"I've not said anything to anyone but, I've been having dreams of Xu, my lovely friend who has been in a coma since the coming of her Goddess child. Dreams of what if's, What if I had been with her instead of Iola. Iola and I got married, but was that truly the right thing to do? I am starting to feel like I made the wrong choice. I do love her but is it the right sort of love? Was I still under the influence of the drug I had been exposed to? The bath, being near Iola, the herbs that she used to help me feel better, did it combine with the drug that I had tasted, had inhaled?" a groan Michael sat back rubbing his head. "I just don't know anymore. Also being here in this Alternate Universe has begun playing havoc with my mind. I am wondering where my other self is, is he alive? Is he dead? I've also been seeing images of Xu wielding a blade and doing a dance of death, and it excites me for some reason." Michael stared at the computer screen, then he continued typing, narrating in his thoughts his own words.
"I feel like a heel at feeling this way. I just am not feeling right about things right now. I have also been feeling like I will be meeting my demise sometime in the future. Whether it be by the hand of that so called Don at Agora Crossing, or someone else, or something else. Maybe Iola needs to go into Star Fleet Academy to get more education. I can't do it all and she needs more development, more than what I can give her. She needs to be around other people besides me. She needs to be where she can experience what it feels like to truly be free. Oh gosh I am feeling trapped, and I may have trapped her as well. I have to let her go, I may have to go. Just someone please get us home, out of this Alternate Universe. Maybe I am slowly going out of my mind. May need to find a replacement for me on the Andromeda. This is Lieutenant Michael Hawkins signing off. "
Lieutenant Michael Hawkins
Chief Engineer
USS Andromeda
